A normal Christmas?

Last year was not a normal Christmas. My husband and two boys had flu right through the Christmas period and nothing felt right. We didn’t take our traditional photo by the tree on Christmas Eve, my younger son missed his trip on the Santa train, there was no enthusiasm for unwrapping presents, they made a vague attempt to eat a Christmas dinner that was delivered to them.

I became nocturnal (but didn’t sleep in the day either), pacing the house at night, watching over my patients, frightened to sleep in case they needed me in the night. I lost half a stone through worry alone. My daughter spent all her time at my mum’s house or hiding out in my bedroom.

And through all of this, one thing kept me sane. The thought that next year we would have a normal Christmas.

A year ago, never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined we would be anywhere but our old house for Christmas. My son would go on the Santa train, we would set out the sacks under the tree on Christmas Eve and take a photo (which we’d then use for the December page of our calendar, like we do every year), we’d have our Christmas dinner together with the family. It would be a proper Christmas.

But here we are at Christmas 2013 and it’s still not a normal Christmas.

We’ve got a pathetic little Christmas tree which isn’t in the right place for our annual Christmas Eve bedtime photo. We’ve got no other decorations, because they’re missing. The house doesn’t look very Christmassy at all. It’s a lovely house, but it’s not ours.

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The kids’ collection of Christmas sacks which we have built up over time – a mish-mash of cloth and plastic, personalised and standard – is missing. Those sacks are nothing special, but they’re their sacks and it’s always exciting to see them come out every year. The kids’ faces fell when we told them the sacks were among the many items missing in the move. So we’ve replaced the sacks temporarily, but they’re just not the same.

It’s another funny old Christmas. Not a bad one like last year, but still not OUR Christmas like it’s supposed to be.

Roll on Christmas 2014. Please may it be a normal one.

Author: Sarah Mummy

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  1. Hope it’s a lovely Christmas, even though its going to be really odd. And I hope 2014 brings you lots of lovely settled things like your new home all done, a new career for you and an amazing Christmas next year xx

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  2. Here’s to next year! I am sure you will have a lovely time no matter whther their sacks are there or not. Merry Christmas x

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  3. They say that home is where the heart is and while that’s true, I know how you feel…
    We had five Christmases in rented houses before we bought our own home and this will be the first Christmas in it, so it’s special.
    Try to make the best of it and no that next year will be different. Merry Christmas to you and yours. xXx

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  4. Hope you still manage to have a good (but different) Christmas.

    Ours will also be very different as my mum won’t be with us. The first time in 30+ years Christmas without her for my brother and I will be very hard. But the other traditions hopefully will still be there.

    Hope the house stuff gets sorted soon and relatively smoothly, and 2014 will bring your normal Christmas back again.

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  5. Sounds like you’re a creature of habit like me! It’s a shame but I’m sure you’ll have fun nonetheless. Wishing you all a very Happy Christmas! x

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  6. Hope you have a wonderful day despite the missing things- what isn’t missing is the love, so it’s all good really! Happy Christmas Sarah xxx

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  7. Hope you have a wonderful Christmas despite the differences xx Wishing you and your family a Merry Christmas and an even better 2014 x

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  8. Aw I think there is so much pressure to have the perfect Christmas, that it’s destined to be disappointing when one thing isn’t right. The important thing is being together, and enjoying each other’s company. That said, I hope that next year you are in your dream home, complete with the old santa sacks 🙂

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  9. I bet you all still had a wonderful time 🙂 I want to run again now, getting ready for Christmas takes all my energy ( can not remember the last time I ran) how is your running over Christmas Sarah?…

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  10. Thanks very much, everyone. I am a creature of habit, Suzanne!
    But I’m pleased to say it was still a good Christmas and actually didn’t feel that different as we spent the majority of the day at my mum’s house, which we do most years anyway.
    Sorry to hear about your mum, Emma, and hope Christmas turned out OK.
    Hope your Christmas was amazing in your new home, Tracy.
    I’m still running, Claire! Did eight miles on Boxing Day 🙂
    Roll on the new year and our new house now!

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