The other day I went to the doctor for a routine follow-up appointment. While I was there, he asked after my acne. I told him it wasn’t good, despite currently being on two types of medication for it. I think we can all assume now, at 39, that I’m not going to grow out of it. He suggested maybe I try some drugs which are only available from the hospital.
They would really dry out my skin, making my painful eczema worse. I’d have cracked dry lips. And I’d have to have ‘really good’ contraception. Apparently the coil, which has prevented me from getting pregnant ever since I had my daughter, isn’t good enough. I’d be on these tablets for six to nine months.
But at the end of it, there’s a 70% chance my acne would be cleared up. Not better, not improved. GONE.
And then I heard on the radio this drug had been linked to depression and suicidal feelings. I could certainly do without THAT. We all know that mums are perfectly capable of getting those without any chemical help whatsoever.
So do I make one thing worse and risk depression to get rid of the other? Or do I just put up with the spots like I’ve done for the last 27 years? The idea of being without them is impossible to imagine. But of course there’s a 30% chance it won’t change and I’ll have put myself through painful eczema and potential depression for months for nothing. What is most important to me here? Are the drugs a step too far?
And I’ve had another health dilemma in the last few days. I think this one really is a sledgehammer to crack a nut.
Apologies if you’re eating… I’ve told you before in this post that running is bad for your toenails. Ever since I did the Bristol half marathon in 2011 I’ve had a toenail which has got thicker and thicker and almost impossible to cut. It looked pretty horrible, but didn’t really bother me until it started causing its neighbour to bleed and giving it blisters.
So I went to a chiropodist. But it turned out he wasn’t just a chiropodist. He was an expert on posture and how the way you stand can cause injury. Apparently my feet don’t touch the ground quite right and my toes are a funny shape. So they’re more likely to get injured. My left knee turns in slightly (I can’t see it myself), so I will always get injured on the left.
The toenail was on the left. And the knee injury/ ITB that stopped me running for a few months last autumn. And the hip pain I had for a year from 1998 until 1999 which still bothers me sometimes. Even the intermittent pain in my hand and wrist is on the left.
For under £1,000 he could correct my posture, preventing further injury and improving my sporting performance.
It sounds tempting, but then I just think, no, if it ain’t broke, don’t fix it. Yes, I get a bit of pain every now and then, but who doesn’t? I’m very lucky with my health.
I only wanted my toenail sorted out. Surely this would be a sledgehammer to crack a nut?