Guinea pigs, grief and why I can’t have a dog
Oct01

Guinea pigs, grief and why I can’t have a dog

As a big fan of guinea pigs, they’re the only pets I’ve ever wanted. Until recently. I used to be quite frightened of dogs. But in recent years I’ve seen how special they are to people, how much joy them give them. I started to like dogs. Then, one day, I realised I really wanted a dog. I’m not alone in this. My younger son wants one too and even my daughter has started to want one. But, for various reasons,...

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Remembering Eric
Feb20

Remembering Eric

The death of Eric the guinea pig hit us all hard. Hit me hard particularly. Even days later, I just kept bursting into tears without warning. Sometimes I’d be OK, then other times I’d want him back so much it hurt. I just kept thinking about that black, brown and white ball of fluff in my arms and I ached for him. Logically, it’s silly. He wasn’t human. He wasn’t even a dog. He was ‘just’ a...

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A birthday cake
Nov26

A birthday cake

I’ve just stuck a candle in a cupcake and said a silent happy birthday for a girl who should turn 14 today. But Abi won’t eat any cake today, she won’t excitedly open up clothes and make-up, she won’t take selfies with her friends, she won’t have a birthday sleepover. Because Abi isn’t here any more. She is forever 12. Today will be a tough day for her family and I am thinking of them as I light...

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Forever 12
Jun30

Forever 12

When my eldest reached the milestone of his teenage years last week, it was a chance for me to reflect – on his life so far and on his life still to come – his journey through GCSEs, A Levels and girlfriends to adulthood. But it was also a chance for me to reflect on my friend Kelly, who blogs at Chasing Dragonflies, and her daughter Abi. Because Abi will be forever 12. Eighteen months ago, I’d never heard of Kelly or Abi....

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